It's that time again and here I am working on a blog trying to figure out the best way to convey that what needs being said. Honestly this topic is something that we all struggle with, but whether or not we choose to realize the gravity of what happens when we try to control things which are above and beyond our control. The very fact of the matter is the more we try to control certain aspects of our life the more we realize that there is no control we have. The only control we have is maybe what we eat, dress, and honestly that's it.
For me this is something that is not just part of daily life of struggling with different aspects of being human, it's that part of me likes to be in a position so I can handle what happens. In reality I think we all like to be in control of our situations and what's going on around us truthfully. I looked at many different things when considering this topic and truthfully this isn't something I want to write about. When this began to be an issue for me was when I first saw a video from Skitguys.com and it showed me exactly how we as Christ Followers try and take control of what we think needs to happen. In truth we need to trust and wait on God's timing knowing that His will is perfect for us.
Going back to school or being almost 30 and still not being married were things that Nathan didn't like the idea of. Working with children and providing childcare for a Women's group was not my idea of serving and the truth of the matter the more I looked at things the more I began to realize that I knew very little of what was best for me. Everything that I knew and thought would be good for me was being tossed out the window at a very rapid pace and things began to change quickly for me. In many ways I could see the scripture come to live in my life and how I needed to trust God in what He was doing versus giving into my fleshly cravings. Yes, I still give in to the cravings of the flesh, but that's why we have grace and mercy. You see no matter how much we think we have our life together, the moment God enters into that equation it goes to pieces in a hurry. Then we try to reassemble the pieces and that's when the realization hits... "Do you want to go through that whole process again ?" For some will answer yes and others will be no. I continue to struggle with this honestly. See here's the piece of the puzzle many people don't realize is we have free will meaning that we are not bound by anything unless we choose to adhere to such things like following scripture, the law, and anything else.
The more this began to show itself in my life the more I realized that, "Nathan you don't have control of anything." When this began to work its way out in my life daily it was very freeing and it helps me to remember who is in control and whom I need to trust with my life. " I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you, plans to not to harm you, but to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11 This became a verse that I would lean on when the struggle of control would rise up again in my life. When I didn't like the direction or what God decided to do in my life I would recite this piece of scripture to remember the truths which He has given us to lean on in such times of struggle. I continue to struggle with this and I suspect I will till the day I die lol! Hope you got something out of this because I did! Take care and God Bless!!
© Nathan Fahlin
