I've debated about writing this for various reasons and so here I am at 2345 in front of my computer. Wishing I could sleep, but instead I find myself wide awake. So already by the first sentence you're already wondering, " What could he possibly debate about talking about after everything he's written?" Well it's a very touchy and personal subject for that matter and there's the possibility that my friends who are women could take it out of context also this is not aimed at anyone particular either. So I guess this would be my disclaimer lol! On to the actually post or whatever this will be.
To whom it may concern:
You may or may not know me yet and I may or may not know you yet either. I'm writing this letter because as someone who hopes he's married with a family someday I pray that God would see fit to bring you into my life. It's all up to God because he has to bring us together and I don't know if that will happen, but I pray that day does happen when I finally meet you face to face.
A couple things that you will find out about me right away, but not the first conversation type of topics. I'm a combat veteran of Iraq and severed honorably in the Minnesota Army National Guard for nearly 7 years. During my single tour of duty in Iraq I left pieces of my life over there from the experiences I had. From the lose of a dear friend and fellow soldier to being wounded by an I.E.D. or more commonly known roadside bombs. These events have cause me a lot of emotional pain in my life, but God is doing a miracle in my life by healing me from the inside out. From these experiences stem what can be a multitude of issues which can overwhelm a person. I have struggled with P.S.T.D. (post traumatic stress disorder), mTBI (mild Traumatic brain injury) due to the concussion I suffered when I was injured. Yes, I've had flash backs where certain triggers have caused me to practically be teleported back to Iraq either by sights, sounds, or smells even.
Okay don't panic here.....yes that might be a lot to think about right a way, but what you need to know that God is working in my life. Lots of changes have already occurred and they continue to happen because we serve a God of healing, hope, and redemption. At times it maybe difficult to see that because let's be honest here there will be times when everything seems to be going wrong. Whether it's flashbacks or having an argument. I know life isn't always easy and can be very challenging, but when I think about those times I remember John 16:33 " In this world you will have many struggles, but take heart!; for I have overcome the world." There will be a lot of learning that happens when or if this day comes and honestly I'm doing my best to leave it in God's very capable hands. It's not always easy though.
Well with all that I've told you about who I am and where I've been I look forward to the day that I meet you. So I get to hear your stories and find out more about you! I hope and pray that we'll meet someday when we're both ready for each other. Gosh, never thought I would actually type this up and finish it. So here's to someday and lots of hope!
© Nathan Fahlin
Friday, September 21, 2012
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Blindsided
As I was blindsided by this today so will most of you who read my blog when I share with you what I'm about to tell you. First off I would like to thank each one of you for taking the time to read my blog. You replies, thoughts, and comments are very much appreciated! Each one of you has had an impact upon me and for that I'm grateful. I thank God for each one of you and how much I've appreciated each one of you.
Well how do I tell you all what blindsided me today. I guess the best way is just to tell and here it goes. After everything that has happened this summer and in my life believe it or not I'm seriously contemplating re-enlisting back into the military. Yep! There. I said it. I know what most of you are thinking and I'm sure some of you are scratching your head or saying to yourself, "Why ? After all he's been through?" To be completely honest with all of you the military is something that has had a very profound impact upon my life. Not that I'm saying God or Jesus hasn't. This is just another piece of who I am as a person. Sure it's dangerous, but that's part of the job. It's like becoming a cop or fire fighter there are hazards to the job they do.
Yes, I realize I almost died and that I should be dead by any right after what I've been through. Think about it like this for a moment though. If this is where God is calling me to use what he's done in my life to minister secretly to others then as a Christ Follower it's my duty and obligation to go. From a young age I've been drawn to the military. There is much that still intrigues me about our branches and the military itself.
This is a decision that will not happen without lots prayer and thoughts going into it. I'm going to be blunt here and frankly not politically correct. If you refuse to respect this decision then honestly de-friend me. If you think that I'm throwing away what God has done then unfriend me. I don't need to deal with people who think it's not the right decision if or when I make it. I'm not going to apologize for making these statements either. Yes, I realize that God has done a lot in my life and has done a marvelous work, but he's not done yet meaning there is more to come.
© Nathan Fahlin
Well how do I tell you all what blindsided me today. I guess the best way is just to tell and here it goes. After everything that has happened this summer and in my life believe it or not I'm seriously contemplating re-enlisting back into the military. Yep! There. I said it. I know what most of you are thinking and I'm sure some of you are scratching your head or saying to yourself, "Why ? After all he's been through?" To be completely honest with all of you the military is something that has had a very profound impact upon my life. Not that I'm saying God or Jesus hasn't. This is just another piece of who I am as a person. Sure it's dangerous, but that's part of the job. It's like becoming a cop or fire fighter there are hazards to the job they do.
Yes, I realize I almost died and that I should be dead by any right after what I've been through. Think about it like this for a moment though. If this is where God is calling me to use what he's done in my life to minister secretly to others then as a Christ Follower it's my duty and obligation to go. From a young age I've been drawn to the military. There is much that still intrigues me about our branches and the military itself.
This is a decision that will not happen without lots prayer and thoughts going into it. I'm going to be blunt here and frankly not politically correct. If you refuse to respect this decision then honestly de-friend me. If you think that I'm throwing away what God has done then unfriend me. I don't need to deal with people who think it's not the right decision if or when I make it. I'm not going to apologize for making these statements either. Yes, I realize that God has done a lot in my life and has done a marvelous work, but he's not done yet meaning there is more to come.
© Nathan Fahlin
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