A Letter

I've debated about writing this for various reasons and so here I am at 2345 in front of my computer. Wishing I could sleep, but instead I find myself wide awake. So already by the first sentence you're already wondering, " What could he possibly debate about talking about after everything he's written?" Well it's a very touchy and personal subject for that matter and there's the possibility that my friends who are women could take it out of context also this is not aimed at anyone particular either. So I guess this would be my disclaimer lol! On to the actually post or whatever this will be.

To whom it may concern:

You may or may not know me yet and I may or may not know you yet either. I'm writing this letter because as someone who hopes he's married with a family someday I pray that God would see fit to bring you into my life. It's all up to God because he has to bring us together and I don't know if that will happen, but I pray that day does happen when I finally meet you face to face.

A couple things that you will find out about me right away, but not the first conversation type of topics. I'm a  combat veteran of Iraq and severed honorably in the Minnesota Army National Guard for nearly 7 years. During my single tour of duty in Iraq I left pieces of my life over there from the experiences I had. From the lose of a dear friend and fellow soldier to being wounded by an I.E.D. or more commonly known roadside bombs. These events have cause me a lot of emotional pain in my life, but God is doing a miracle in my life by healing me from the inside out. From these experiences stem what can be a multitude of issues which can overwhelm a person. I have struggled with P.S.T.D. (post traumatic stress disorder), mTBI (mild Traumatic brain injury) due to the concussion I suffered when I was injured. Yes, I've had flash backs where certain triggers have caused me to practically be teleported back to Iraq either by sights, sounds, or smells even.

Okay don't panic here.....yes that might be a lot to think about right a way, but what you need to know that God is working in my life. Lots of changes have already occurred and they continue to happen because we serve a God of healing, hope, and redemption. At times it maybe difficult to see that because let's be honest here there will be times when everything seems to be going wrong. Whether it's flashbacks or having an argument. I know life isn't always easy and can be very challenging, but when I think about those times I remember John 16:33 " In this world you will have many struggles, but take heart!; for I have overcome the world." There will be a lot of learning that happens when or if this day comes and honestly I'm doing my best to leave it in God's very capable hands. It's not always easy though.

Well with all that I've told you about who I am and where I've been I look forward to the day that I meet you. So I get to hear your stories and find out more about you! I hope and pray that we'll meet someday when we're both ready for each other. Gosh, never thought I would actually type this up and finish it. So here's to someday and lots of hope!

© Nathan Fahlin