New Year: Grace

Well it's 2017 and this is the last semester for my degree which means graduation is four short months and that means a lot of life changes. Like most college students facing graduation my goal is to find work and a place to lay my head at night for post-graduation life. Trying to grasp what life will look like yet still having enough faith to say, "Okay God thy will be done," that is my life right now. The other challenges are getting through this semester which ultimately will be one of the more challenging semesters for me because of class load along with Senior Project and Internship which adds up to 18 credits.

 There are far more unknowns in my life right now than knowns which for a guy who struggles with control and comfort is annoying to say the least; it's been difficult knowing where the direction will take me. I think surrender is a lot harder in a sense than we understand from the human perspective because of the reality which is our condition. Humbling in the matter which we find ourselves struggling because life doesn't turn out the way we want or because the hand we were dealt, however that is life. One thing I've found out is just because we get a raw deal in life doesn't mean that there isn't hope for our life can be.

I'm a guy with a past which includes dark times, trying to come to grip with where I've been and the obstacles which have been in my life. Many people may jump to my military service, however this goes back to before the Army. I'm talking about my educational years starting in elementary school all the way till high school. That being said one goal this year is to show myself a little more grace, the same grace I show my friends or people in general. It's difficult because typically I'm harder on myself than anyone else and after everything in life it's hard to take that step forward.


Ugh...

What am I doing??

 Unfortunately, my life is the life which I've been dealt, I could whine and cry about how life's not fair or I could surrender myself before God, pray asking him to help me. Sometimes the very weight of our past makes it almost impossible for us to move forward in life, yet the reality of which is Christ there is far more freedom, grace, understanding, love, hope, and faith. The greatest of these is love, love for God, Christ, what he has created, and probably most importantly ourselves.

With that I leave with this quote from the short movie, The Butterfly Circus.

Mr. Mendeaz, “The greater the struggle, the more glorious the triumph!”