Hopefully this will shed some light on things that veterans have to deal when coming home from war. Stuff that maybe most people don't understand, don't realize or for whatever reason are just clueless. I'm going to talk what's common among veterans as I'm still learning myself because this is still something that I'm learning about.
After a handful of doctor appointments to the VA hospital in Minneapolis and Superior along with more hours logged in my truck driving I dare say that I have a better grasp on what's common among veterans who've returned from war. My tolerance for people is lower then what is has been simply because I do not tolerate others as much along with my lack of tolerance comes an irritability with people who don't educate themselves.
These are probably two that I struggle most with for many reasons. Tolerance is one of those things that I generally don't have a problem with unless the people I'm talking to haven't educated themselves on the topic they are talking about. The truth is if you haven't taken the time to research and educate yourself on the topic that's being talked about then my tolerance for you just got a whole lot lower. I see to many people looking for society, media, and other sources to educate themselves instead of doing the work themselves. This is also were I have a problem with social media devices too. I know it's not right and that's something I do struggle with and it's going to take sometime to change that. It's frustrating at times because there are people that I like, but for most my tolerances have gone which makes spending time with them tough.
Irritability comes up a lot when I'm driving. I joke around with people who know me about driving and how much other people irritate me with the way they drive or lack of their ability. I'll be the first say I'm not the best driver, but when you're merging in and out of traffic seriously get off your cell phone. This is one area that has seen more improvement because I know it needs to change because I've watched myself do some weird things while driving and the irritability level just goes through the roof.
I didn't mention this one up above like I did the other two, but arguably this topic is probably I struggle with more then anything else and the one I have made the least amount of progress with. Isolation. It sucks and I really don't like feeling isolated. For the majority of August I felt isolated among just about any group of people I hung out with minus veterans for obvious reasons. I can recall several times where I was around people who I call friend, but just totally isolated in the group I was in. It drove me nuts because I all I wanted was to be welcomed. There was a couple times in August that I honestly just wanted to leave because it was just to hard to hang the people I was with and I'm talking about good friends who've proven themselves worthy of a friendship. What makes a person want to do that you might ask ? I won't go into that topic because that is a can of worms I don't wanna open this morning.
I truly do believe there is a reason why I'm around the body of believer that I am with right now because without them I believe I might be lost and ever searching, but would I find what I was looking I dunno. It's been a long road so far, but what's happened is truly amazing so far if you ask me. Well I suppose it's time to rap this up and that okay. It was good to get this out and into the open. I do enjoy writing like this because I get to talk about topics that I actually like. Have a good day and God Bless!:)
© Nathan Fahlin
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