Idenitiy Theft

As I was driving to class I noticed something considerably different in thought pattern along with my personality even. For me it started a long time ago and this has festered which has caused me a lot of pain in the past. I saw in the past because as of today the truth is in and the trash is out. As 1 Corinthains 5:17 says, " Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!"

I won't drag this out anymore then what it will be and what I want to talk about is the nuts and bolts of this. The lies that are believed that causes an identity theft and secondly the truths that as a christian guy needs to recognize and understand who we are in Christ.

This is a very deeply rooted issues because I've been dealing with it for most of my life and it's only gotten worse after coming back from Iraq. With the talk of an engagement amongst my friends it's made it even harder because I'm going through a hard time right now honestly. After 4 years being I'm just now starting to decompress in many ways that I never did before when I came home. Most of my issues I suppressed them with multiple different things what they are isn't a concern anymore, but after all this time I'm starting to deal with them. With the looming thought of being diagnosed with P.T.S.D., the baggage from Iraq and the fact of going off to war is all painful. In many ways this has been a good season, but it also makes life just overall tougher for me. The more I look deeper inside of myself the more I see the identity theft that has taken place. I know it won't be easy to rid myself of this, but it's the least I can do right now.

So I'll bring you up to where I was when I realized what this truly had become which was about an hour ago as I was driving to class it as I praying like a ton of bricks. I felt the pain in my heart, the tears begin to form, and the longing to be who I am and not something that I'm not. Gosh I hate talking about this stuff...... stuff that I wish I didn't have to deal with, stuff that hurts because I've believed it for far to long. But this is what I get to deal with. Funny thing is I've told plenty of others about the verses that have helped me, but have I truly believed what I've told others now I'm not so sure after today.

The truths are outlined clearly in the bible. That we are treasured, loved, and valued. God's love should be enough, but yet with our insecurities it doesn't always have the effect that it should. This isn't one of the topics that I like talking about, but it needs to come out because I can't keep it in anymore.

© Nathan Fahlin