So over the past year there has been a series of spiritual attacks which I've experienced beyond anything previously experienced in my walk with Christ, something that people may not put a lot of stock into. It has been an eye opening experience and a humbling one because it's forced me to rely on God even more, to the point where in my dreams when there has been something demonic in them I've cried out physically as if my spirit knew what to do. This is not meant to scare you, but to inform you that, "The devil roams around like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour." 1 Peter 5:8. That as Christians we must put on the full armor of Ephesians 6:10-18 and walk with God in a way that is more intentional than ever before, because with him and through him we have victory. Because Christ is the victor, the devil has been defeated and so has death and in the end we will be there in heaven with Christ, resurrected in our new bodies.
So about January after watching a T.V. show on a family that experienced a possession of their child by a demonic being that is when this all really took, but it really started when I made the commitment to come to North Central. A commitment to follow God wherever he took me, to be willing to the point if he asked me to lay down my life for the cause of the Gospel I would which details back to my discipleship. So in early August of 2013, I was laying asleep in my bed when my right ear began to ring intensely and when I woke up there was a dark figure standing in my door way, being that I couldn't move I called out to Jesus and it stopped. Later that week at church, there was a few people who I shared my events with and the prayers were helpful.
Then fast forward to either the fall of 2013 or spring of 2014, I was yet again sleeping or just just about to fall asleep, my head was in my pillow just enough that when this backward force was trying to push my head into the pillow I resisted. For a while everything went quite then in January of this year after watching a tv show about a real exorcism everything flared up where there was times when I was just about asleep then my feet would get grabbed waking me. This went on for a month or two, maybe more, but one morning after a rough night I texted a friend who came over and we prayed over my apartment and me. After that time spent praying everything went quite through the summer, but in late August of this year it started up again with the grabbing of my feet, crazy dreams that either had demons in them or crap, and noises in my apartment. So since then there has been people praying for me constantly and here's a little teaser in case you didn't know; the devil doesn't win. Yup!, he has already lost when Christ was killed on the cross then rose again three days later because death was defeated and we have a restored relationship with our God who created us.
Through this entire course there has been days of little to no sleep and in general a lack of sleep, but something has happened that I'm not sure satan could of anticipated and that is me drawing upon the word of God more than I have for sometime. The moments with God have been sweeter and the intimacy in the relationship has grown, but just because someone is experiencing spiritual attacks doesn't mean they are doing something wrong, quite the opposite they are doing something right. To the point that satan sees them as a threat and uses fear, lies, and anything else to take over us; fills our minds with lies; our emotions with guilt, condemnation, and shame; our hearts with fear and rejection.
God is seeing me through this time and continually shows up even though I "feel" lonely or isolated and the reality is that we aren't. The more time I've spent in scripture, the deeper the connection with God and Christ thus being able to see the lies much clearer than before. The fight doesn't get easier, but relying on God in all things becomes easier because he can do anything and his yoke is easy. You see satan likes take jabs at us where we are the weakest and exploit the weaknesses, from that point he then just begins to enter garbage into your life and spread all sorts of nonsense. A few of my weak points are distinguishing lies, when I'm tired, and emotions. In the past weeks these have all been flaring up, but each day I stand in the armor of God and fight against these attacks. Quoting scripture and worshiping are some of the best ways, but what has helped me is getting other people to pray for which means telling them what has been happening. God is stronger than satan will ever be and his love is perfect and perfect love casts out all fear.
So whatever you are going through reach out to others and start getting people to pray for you because there is strength in having other believers pray for you. Get friends to pray for you and pray over your house, door room, or apartment if necessary. Stay in the Bible, it's your firm foundation, and the gates of hell will never overtake you. Stay connected with other Christians, but above all else keep your relationship with God going.
Hope you've found this help! Take care and God bless!!
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